Pretty Sure I'm Going To Go Crazy

Yep it's official, I have fallen off the deep end. I am so over all these kids. Been feeling that way for a while. One doesn't know how to say anything that makes sense or that doesn't sound idiotic, one can't stop talking about kissing a boy and the other three, well the don't stop fighting and screaming. My nerves are shot. I think of ways that I can land myself in the hospital for a few days, just to escape all of it. Worries me a bit but that's how fed up I am and how desprate I am for an escape. Nothing that will cause serious harm, just maybe something that will need a few days observation perhaps. Right now it's Cecilia. They were all playing nicely and then it all hit the fan. Cecilia bit Kitty in an attempt to make her go away when all Kitty was doing was what I asked and that was to push Cici around. Then it all unravelled from there. So I decided it was nap time. Nothing a good nap can't fix. That was half an hour ago and Cici won't stop screaming. I refuse to go up there cause then they all will wake up and I might as well just get them all out of bed and deal with the aftermath of angry and tired two year olds. No thank you, I'll pass. I'm really hoping that my sister in law gets here soon so I can get the hell out of here and be alone though. My husband works days all week, which would usually make me so elated, but the way these girls are behaving I dread it. My skin cringes and my stomach churns at the thought of being here all day to deal with the wrath of these females. It's slowly killing me, I can feel it. I just know it.

I'm Pooped

I am exhausted. Between these babies and the teenagers, I'm about tapped out. I need some serious alone time, a few days away. Something. But I don't see that happening any time soon, which is killing me. Since the girls have officially entered the terrible twos they have made it known. Fighting, screaming, crying for no reason, pulling hair and hitting. Just sets my nerves on edge. The husbands fluctuating schedule isn't helping. These girls have the ultimate PMS symptoms I swear. So happy and snugly and then not even two minutes later throwing themselves on the floor and screaming at a piece of lint. When I see these behaviors sometimes I get worried, could it be something deeper that the doctors haven't picked up on. Is it something that is developing now? I'm sure that I am just worrying about something that isn't even there. I just never had to deal with the 2's with Anthony so this part is all new for me. I'm just over the screaming and bad moods. When I said I wanted to be a stay at home mom I thought it would be much much easier! I guess it's never that easy with triplets.

Catherine

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Catherine...baby A, big sister to the trio. She was the first out of the hospital and officially the first to turn 2 over the weekend. She is the "superstar" when it comes to developing. She has a bigger vocabulary, can do more things and can handle her own a little better. She is so independent and vocal. She looks after the "twins" for the most part. If they are sad, sick or get hurt she is the first one to go to them and help out, even if that means giving them a cup of milk or a baby doll. She will hold their hand and bring them to me if I ask her to, she will help out picking things up if I ask and she is the one that likes to sit and cuddle me. Catherine and I have a bond. She is my mini me. I think it's because she was breast fed and the first home. She got more one on one time and more of a bonding experience. There is just a special little place in my heart for her. I'm having so much fun watching her grow and learn things. You can see her brain working constantly. She is always repeating things and watching so that she can learn, learn, learn. It's crazy to see how independent she is! She can go and play by herself and be perfectly happy for the longest time. It's just sad when she tries to break into the twins playing because they have a bond of their own it seems and she is just trying to fit in sometimes. Maybe that is another reason for the bond, knowing that she loves her sisters and they love her, but sometimes they do their own thing and she is roaming alone, so we sit and visit and love on eachother while they do their thing, or I go and play with them too so that the playing field is equal. The world of triplets is quite a crazy one, which leaves me longing for a quiet evening of doing nothing. But, on the other side most of the time, I can't do it. There is laundry, dishes, picking up toys, making sure the teenagers are taken care of as well as the dog. Doing nothing feels strange. I feel like there is something missing when I'm just sitting there doing nothing, lets take right now for instance...I should be relaxing and enjoying the evening. But no, I am on the computer while I wait for the girls' laundry to be done so I can fold them. Did I mention that I need to wake up at 4am to take my parents to the airport in the morning?